The Light at the End of the Tunnel

I can finally successfully say I now clearly can see the light! I felt as thought I had to give brith in order to be reborn again. I know it sounds crazy but it's true. Believe it or not I was in a dark place after my son was born and it took a lot of work to get out of it. By a lot I mean I tried everything: Prayer, massage therapy, yoga, mediation, acupuncture, seeing a pelvic floor specialist, going to group therapy, one on one counseling, even a postpartum depression drug called Lexapro, wet cupping, energy healing, lymphatic drainage, sound baths, spa retreats, chryno therapy, womb surround, Iv drips, red light therapy, books like Radical Forgiveness, Holy Moments, Healing Yourself With In, Down Came the Rain and the 4th Trimester. They all helped in their own ways to get me to feel like my self again. Heck I am even getting certified in Energy Healing now so I definitely have been down a long spiritual journey here! Kayden is about to be 2 so time was definitely a factor as well. Plus I am finally getting my sleep back now that he sleeps through the night, thank God! I kept powering through it all though. I kept running my company, pressuring my dreams. I never once let Kayden know that I was feeling sad or broken inside. To him life was perfect, it probably was too, it just didn't seem that way to me since being a first time mother is so hard. You know what though, a little kid once asked me if I ever frown. I was confused because I thought I walked around looking super stressed out. To him though all he saw was a giant smile. So I replied no, I have a new baby and that is what keeps me smiling. I will never forget that turning point. Now I feel my self smiling inside too. My jaw even hurts from how much I smile sometimes. Hang in there mama's there is light at at the end of the tunnel. I promise you!